Let Go of That Identity; Have a Real Vacation!
One more important thing: be a little more flowing than your usual self for the time you are here. You are in a safe and blissful zone, so just let go. Don't be frozen and serious. Nobody is here to exploit you; you are in a completely safe and secure zone. So be relaxed and open.
People are constantly holding onto their identity because they feel insecure and threatened that their identity might disappear if they let go. Deep down, all of you have a desire to actually be in a place where you don't need to hold on to your identity; where no one will recognize you, and you can just let go and do what you wish to do. So, when I create such a situation, people see the possibility for it to happen, but feel insecure because of that. Just see the self contradiction!
When you see a beach, or a resort, or a snow covered mountain in a website or on television or in photographs, you always feel that you should be there in that spot, is it not? You visualize and fantasize that you are traveling by boat and enjoying that ambience! But when you actually go to that spot, you don't feel that same joy or the ecstasy which you felt when you fantasized. When you think of Miami, it is amazing, but when you live there, it is not so amazing. Why is this so? Because the desire swelling in you, is actually to be in a place where you don't need to hold on to your identity. While this is your real desire, you think that the place is the real desire!
You know that there is nobody in Miami who knows you and so you don't have to hold on to your identity for survival. This is the actual thought under all the layers of thoughts. This thought does not even surface consciously; it is there subconsciously. This thought is an expression of your yearning for freedom from identity. This is what you are really searching for, not any fantasy place. Understand this truth very deeply and it will help you to have a real vacation here and now! Your desire for vacation is nothing but the desire to be away from your identity. But, when you go there, without knowing the truth that you started out with, you try to establish your identity there also. In two days, you establish your same old identity firmly, and experience the same hell. You settle down comfortably with your old hell.
Now, for these two days, try to have a real vacation. Move away from your identity. First, move away from your friends and family; do not sit next to them. If you sit next to them, you will constantly feel obliged to react the way they would want you to. You will be having some identity, or image of yourself with that relative. You will be forced to maintain that identity all the time, if you sit next to them; your words, your laughter, your body language, even the way you sit, etc. You will be unconsciously maintaining it all for their sake. And every time you do that, you will be establishing your old identity again. I have seen husbands who do not laugh completely when they are sitting with their wives. Every time they feel like laughing, they look for some kind of concurrence. If the wife laughs, they will also laugh. So much of bondage is not required! At least, for these two days, you can be a little away from it and relax. It is for your own good that I am saying, not for anything else.