Q: How can we create trust in Swamiji? How can we drop doubts about doing what we want to do with our hearts when our heads keep asking questions?
This is a wonderful question and very honest. Your problem is shared by many people.
First of all, you cannot create trust. Trust has to happen. Trust is not the same as faith. It is a higher level of understanding. Faith and belief are our conditioning. It is the stuff we are fed from childhood. Children are suggestible. We know now that until adolescence the brain wave patterns of children are in the alpha state and they can be easily influenced by the opinion and guidance of older people. We are taught from a young age whom we should believe and whom we should distrust.
The trust we are talking about is different from conditioned faith and trust. The ordinary faith and trust come from our head, logic and so-called knowledge inputs. Yet, deep within us, from our being, there is a constant nagging of dissatisfaction with our conditioning. Many ignore this nagging and occupy themselves with the outer world.
However, some find it impossible to ignore this inner call. They listen and move in a direction that is in tune with this voice. They turn to religion, to scriptures and finally they turn to masters when they find themselves deeply dissatisfied with whatever they have experienced in the outer world.
The doubts that we have of the outer world carry over into our search of the inner world too. For every answer we receive, we have a dozen new questions. That is natural and as it should be. Then there comes a point where logic is exhausted. It may happen through a sudden revelation, by reading something, witnessing something, listening to someone, or for no reason at all. It is as if all questions have been answered and all doubts have been cleared. I term this experience a 'click'. This click initiates a churning inside us. It starts a psychological revolution in our system.
This is when trust begins, true trust, trust that leads us to surrendering our logic to a higher state of intelligence.
Many followers remember the exact point when this happened to them. They invariably share it as moments when they were listening to these discourses, or read the books. A sudden chemical reaction within them says, 'Wake up! Your time is up; no more questions.' The brain issues a command that overrides logic.
We cannot force this. This happens by itself when we are ready.
People ask, 'How do we remember you once we leave your presence?' I say, 'If I am your master and you accept me as your master, the problem will be trying to forget me not remembering me! Your master will occupy your entire inner space head, heart and being.'
Let your head and logic exhaust themselves with questions. They will eventually get tired, because logic has an end and spirituality is endless.