Awareness – The Ultimate Key🔗

When you suddenly become aware, any thought which flows in front of you becomes your life.

You start giving attention to it, either to fulfill or to escape. Understand: it is like slides on a projector. Any slide which is kept in front of the projector light is seen as reality on the screen. The problem is that in your inner space, the projector light is not continuously on. It just comes and goes, comes and goes… but you are not aware of your existence. Many times, even though your eyes are open, even though your body is moving, you will not be aware of your existence.

You can see in your life, you will get into your car from your house, drive for half an hour to the office. Only after you reach the office, park the car, and come out of the car, suddenly you will realize, 'Oh, I finished my driving! I have reached the office.' You have taken 200 decisions in that half an hour. Right, left, applying brakes, stopping for signal…but you are not aware of your existence. That is why you don't remember all these decisions you took, and these things that happened in you. It means that in those few moments, the projector light was off.

Any slide, which was moving in front of it during those moments when the projector light of your awareness was off, is not part of your life. Again, for no reason, the light comes on. When the light is on, when you are aware that you exist, whatever thought moves in front of you, becomes a part of you.

Understand, it is a very subtle truth. Your life is the totality of all the thoughts moving in front of you.

Unfortunately, many times, many major decisions, thoughts and the life-changing incidents happen when you are not aware. These are also part of your life, part of your biography but, unfortunately, you are not aware of the scenes, decisions, thoughts which went on, which contributed to your life.

Every single moment which passes in your life without you being aware of it, of your presence, is suffering.

Either directly or indirectly it will add to suffering. Either directly you will invite or indirectly you will create situations for suffering. It is a very important thing.

Like when you turn your car, the indicators blink, in the same way your consciousness also blinks. You do not know when it is on, when it is off. If you just see the thought flow in front of you, suddenly you will realize, 'Oh God, all these things are going on in me! I myself do not know where I am heading. I myself do not know what is happening in me.'

First, I wanted all of you to understand, you are not aware of all the decisions, all the thoughts moving inside you, inspiring you to live the way in which you are living, inspiring you to think the way in which you are thinking, inspiring you to be the way you are.

You are not aware, but constantly we believe we are aware. That is the first illusion.

Whenever I make this point, people get frightened, 'Oh God, I have enough suffering, now he is adding one more suffering, one more fear! Now I don't know where I am heading.' Understand, I am not adding suffering. I am just helping you to experience and open up to reality.

One more thing: opening up to the reality, though it feels like suffering in the initial level, it will always lead you to joy and bliss, because sat, by its very nature is chit. Sat means the Truth. By its very nature sat is chit, which means power, consciousness, and ananda, bliss. By its very nature sat leads to chit, and chit leads to ananda.

In the initial level it may feel like a little more responsibility, a little more load. Now, many of your minds would have decided, 'No, no, no…what he says may be right, that I am not aware of everything happening in front of me, but I can't become aware of everything happening in front of me. Living in the present moment and being aware of whatever is going on is not for me. I tried many times Swamiji; you don't know how many techniques I've tried!…'

Understand: we are not as dumb as we think! We have a huge possibility, a huge potentiality. Maybe, the right initiation has not happened, the right click has not happened. So, don't close the file saying, 'No, no, no…I have tried many times; you don't know how many gurus I went to and how many techniques I have tried.'

There are many people whose 'profession' is seeking; I call them 'professional seekers'. But, they don't go for learning; they just go for judging, 'Let me also see what he is teaching.'

People come to me and ask, 'I know everything Swamiji, just give me in essence what extra you can add to me. I tell them, 'Sorry, I don't know anything extra to add to you! I can only remove something from you. I can remove what you think as knowledge, so that the Truth can happen.

Please do not come to the decision, 'No, no, I think he is going to teach living in the present moment. I have tried many times, it does not work out, and even if it works out it goes away after some time. No, I am not going to teach you living in the present moment, because you are living that already, why should I teach it?! Even if you are suffering about your past, you are suffering in the present. Even if you are worrying about your future, you are worrying in the present. So, you are in the present. I am not going to teach you to be in the present. All I am doing is to try to take away some ideas, which you think of as your mind.