Initiation
Let's get ready to experience initiation. Understand, today is the main part, the essence of the three days.
Let me define the word 'initiation'. Day before yesterday, I was using the word 'psychological revolution'. Yesterday, I introduced the word 'shaastra-shastra' or knowledge-weapon.
Whenever you need to heal yourself, whenever you need inner healing, you need to bring yourself again to the life energy. Many times you can see, a simple disturbance from the outside or from the memory inside - either from experience or from memory - can drain your energy. Or even making too many decisions drains your energy.
You can see in your own life: in the morning, if you go and sit in your office, you don't have to do any work, just make some five to six major decisions, and you will be already tired. You say, I am done, that's all.
Either the incidents from outside or memory from inside or just simple decision-making makes you tired. The truths, ideas, words which bring you out of that tiredness, which bring you out of that low mood, which bring you out of that depression and give you energy and confidence, those only
Truths which bring you out of depression and low mood and add self-healing energy and confidence into you are called shaastra-shastraas.
I call shaastra-shastraas, knowledge-weapons.
The truths which not only bring you out of depression but also destroy the source of depression once and for all are called mantra. Understand the
word 'mantra'. 'Man traayate iti mantraha', the words which show the path for human beings is mantra.
Any mantra, if it comes from the enlightened experience, from the pure inner space, you do not know why, how or what, but you suddenly see it is true. It clicks, even though one part of your The truth that not only brings you out of depression, but once and for all, breaks the source of depression in you, is called mantra. logic continues to fight, because if you accept the Truth and start expressing in your life, all your vested interests and many things which you thought of as 'life' are at stake.
That part may continue to fight. But your core, your being, will have that click, 'I know what he is saying is the Truth. Maybe, it is too strong for me; maybe if I start living it too many things are at stake, but it is the Truth.'
This can all be a confusion or disturbance. There may be a doubt in the corner of your You don't know logically, but suddenly your heart feels connected to the words which he is uttering, the Truth which he is expressing. That connection, that 'click' is what I call initiation. heart, but the very core feels connected. If that happens to you it is called initiation.
Please get ready for initiation. Today we are going to enter into initiation.
I am trying to express some Truths. Understand, yesterday whatever I added is shaastra-shastraas, knowledge-weapons; they can bring you out of depression, they can bring you out of that low mood, they can bring you out of that dull feeling and get you into an inspiring and healing mood and an energetic feeling.
But today, what I am going to share can break the very core of depression, what we call 'root of your mind'. There is every possibility; just be available, receptive, and ready to let this satya or Truth, work on you. Suddenly you will see that click, that initiation happen in you.
Just do not sleep whether with closed eyes or open eyes!
Second thing, do not 'browse channels' like you do when watching television! While watching television in the house, you will not sit in front of one channel for more than five minutes. In fifteen minutes, you would have browsed all the channels and come back. The same thing continues everywhere, even when you sit in a discourse. After 2-3 minutes you change the channel. Your eyes may be open, you may be sitting here, but you change the channel and go into either the dream state or daydreaming state or almost-sleeping state! Just today, please do not change the channel!
Another thing, be completely relaxed and just play with the understanding of the words which come out of the enlightened inner space. Sometimes it will give you an idea, 'Oh, if I start practicing this, what will happen to…' Just push aside the prejudiced, pre-supposed and hypothetical questions.
Yesterday I saw many questions like, 'What to do if this happens…?' The 'if' has no answer. You can say, 'If the world suddenly disappears, if the world gets destroyed, what to do?' What to do, nothing can be done, that's all! That 'if' has no answer. The 'if' is just a cunning way of postponing the truth.
So now, just do not change the channel.
Second, just be relaxed, go with the flow, go with the whole expression.
Suddenly you will see somewhere it clicks. Somewhere, it just clicks! That click is what I call initiation. Initiation does not mean chanting some special mantra in your ears or doing something special. It straightaway means making you experience a solid truth, giving you a clear inner space and the confidence to live that truth.
In the tradition of Vedanta, we have three beautiful words, shravana, manana and nidhidhyaasana. Shravana means intense listening; manana means internalizing, contemplating; nidhidhyaasana means living it.
Initiation means the great truths, the words which lead you to the truth.
If it is experientially transmitted, if you have at least one glimpse, then the initiation has happened; you are initiated.
When I use word 'initiation' there will be so many doubts, 'I am already initiated by some other guru, can I have initiation? If I get initiated can I go to some other gurus and learn something?' Everything is perfectly alright, nothing wrong. I always tell people, go to all gardens and pluck flowers and make a beautiful garland for yourself.
It is not like a shop, where if you go to one shop, you don't go to another. Our ego is such, if it is beaten by ten to twelve gurus, only then it will die! It won't die just by something you learn from one person. So, there is nothing wrong in approaching different gurus.
Learn all the best things from all the sources and enrich your life. It is in no way connected to any of the old understandings you have about initiation.
Initiation is just transmitting the authentic experiential clarity which happened in me into your inner space.
Many times, when I start the initiation, I have seen people wondering, 'What does he mean by initiation? How is this going to help? How is this going to change my life? After all, it is just a few more words…' This is the usual mentality. Especially when I give such a big introduction about initiation, people think, 'Oh, he is wasting too much time on introduction. Why not enter into meditation, enter into the initiation?'
The big problem is, whether you believe it or not, it takes at least half an hour for you to start listening to somebody. For the first half an hour, you will be preparing your replies.
Usually conversation never starts till you are past half an hour into it. Until about half an hour, the listening never starts. It is just a monologue; it is just somebody talking, and either you will not be listening at all, or if you are listening, you will just be preparing your answers. That is the reason I am just preparing the mind.
Unconsciously, you also will be ready to receive these great Truths, to receive the initiation, to receive that click. At which moment the click will happen you don't know. But suddenly, once the expression of truth is over, you will see, you will feel, 'Yes, it is true, I am seeing it; it is true!…' So, just be prepared for initiation, entering into the truth.
Chapter 14