Lack of Equanimity🔗

• Anger and outpourings are external indications of the presence of 'lack of equanimity'.
• Feeling of struggle is an internal indication of the the presence of "lack of equanimity".
• At the time of anger, outbursts and struggles, being fullv aware of it is being with awareness.

All our anger is childish. It is an indisputable fact.

Anger is not under our control. We are under the control of anger.

We become angry for very small matters, such as for changes happening outside, some wrong behaviors in relationships and for things not turning out as expected.

The small changes which occur outside us only cause us to lose our tempers and to lose our balance. This upsets our equanimity; creates lack of equanimity. Enlightened state is only that of remaining with equanimity and wholly within you at all times and under all circumstances. The Hasid enlightened Master Ju-Malki is one such person.

The news spread like wild fire that disciples of Ju-Malki are all joyful and many of them have already become enlightened.

One Negam C belonged to such a group of people, who, while remaining in the hurry-burry way of life, wished to get enlightened immediately just like that.

One day, Negam C came to Ju-Malki and asked him, 'I need enlightenment very urgently. Can you get it inside me immediately?'

Ju-Malki asked Negam C. 'Why are you in so much of a hurry? Why do you want to get enlightened so hurriedly?'

Negam C said. 'I have started a new business with huge capital. I don't possess the maturity to manage the business. Moreover, the health of my father, who was of great help and support to me, is also deteriorating. Hence. I should get enlightenment as soon as possible. Then I can live with equanimity. Please tell me very early a method for me to get enlightenment."

Ju-Malki, with an unchanging smile, looked at him, surveyed him and said, 'At least twelve months will be required.'

Negam C begged of him, 'I will do whatever you say. Whatever severe penance and meditation you want me to do. I will do so. Kindly make early arrangements for me to get enlightenment."

Ju-Malki said. 'If you have this much of haste and disturbance inside you, you will have to strive and work hard at least for five or six years. '

Negam C could not accept such a sort of reply. He was angry that this man was not able to realize his position and also his urgency.

But Ju-Malki did not bother about this and again said calmly, 'If you are so disturbed inside and feel so much urgency, then it is rather difficult. Even in your imagination, you cannot experience equanimity and enlightenment unless you are on the path of spirituality for at least ten or fifteen years.

Negam got utterly confused. He asked, much perturbed, 'Then, what am I to do?'

Ju-Malki, with all his grace, said, 'My intention is not to injure your feelings. I spoke like this only to make you understand the truth.

You must understand one thing deeply. To whatever extent there is urgency and hurry, to the same extent there will be anger and bad temper. Depending upon the amount of anger and bad temper, equanimity will be affected giving rise to lack of equanimity.

Stop this hurry and look at yourself inwardly. Haste will be lessened. Until then, don't even come near me.' So saying, he sent him out. With uncontrollable anger, Negam exited from there.

It will be known to what extent our equanimity has become polluted and turned as lack of equanimity.

Have you found out the faults? If the answer is 'yes', it means you have taken the step towards equanimity for yourself. Yes, one should really have an open mind to accept that there is struggle going on within you.

Even beyond this, if we have found out the nature and quality of the struggles inside us, then, know for sure, that we have begun our walk from lack of equanimity towards total equanimity.

It is an achievement for the people who live in the outside world finding a 'bridge' through which to go into the inner world. This is the first step for the achievement of the inner world.

Finding out the struggles is equivalent to discovering that bridge. Overcome the struggles. Equanimity, which is devoid of all sorts of struggles, is waiting within us.

The easy way to overcome all the struggles is to enter into the struggle with courage and the awareness to accomplish that, no matter what happens.

Begin right from this moment, to enter into the lack of equanimity and begin the travel toward a state of total equanimity.

If we get equanimity, we can also become Ju-Malki. We will be able to shower equanimity as a gift to ourselves and also to the world.

If we continue to live with lack of equanimity, as the enlightened Master said to Negam C. our own lack of equanimity will appear too much for us and we will pity ourselves and also make others pitiful and lose our peace of mind. Ponder. Walk towards equanimity.