FALL IN LOVE WITH SEEKING
Seeking is your innermost core's pain by understanding it has not yet expressed its full potential. Your innermost core's suffocation by understanding it needs to expand.
Your inner most being's decision to expand. Decision to be free. I am defining seeking as your inner most core's decision to be free, your inner most core's decision to be awakened. Your inner most core's decision not to continue with the status-quo.
Continuing with the status quo, with the fantasy, someday something will happen from heaven or from somewhere. From the sky something will drop and everything in my life will be aligned and proper. Fallible vision is fantasy. Infallible fantasy is vision.
When you take the responsibility for your visualization, it is vision. When you don't take responsibility for your thinking, it is fantasy.
Much of your inner happening is the game of fantasy, and unfortunately you make that into a religion. Fantasy should be entertained to the level of entertainment, not more than that. Don't make a religion out of it. That is not the stuff out of which we can make religion.
A pillar made of fiberglass can be used as a decoration piece, but you can't make a building stand on it. The fiberglass pillar cannot hold the building, it can only be a decoration piece. If you try to make the building stand on it, you are in danger. You are wrong. It is so unfortunate we go on cherishing fantasy.
We also have one more fantasy to support our fantasy – someday, from somewhere, something will fall and everything will become alright. That is what I call the status-quo living.
The status-quo living is postponing with the fantasy, thinking someday, something will collapse, something will fall and everything will become alright. The worst thing of living this status-quo is that after sometime you even forget you can take decisions.
I have seen people, for their entire life they are activists, meaning they get on the stage and give big lectures on cleaning the country. They even join the army which cleans the streets, schools, and colleges. Finally after sometime, they learn only the art of mobilizing the huge gathering and huge volunteers, and doing something. Slowly, slowly they forget they themselves can do something.
And I have seen that these types of people, the street in which they go for a walk everyday is full of trash and dirt. It may take ten minutes for them to clean that area,
but they won't, because they forget they can do something. They always think they can only mobilize the crowd, and that crowd only can do something. They forget they themselves can do something.
This example is very important. If you look into your life, many times you walk three kilometers to go and give a lecture about cleanliness, but the house where you are staying or the street where you are walking, if you just bent down and spend ten minutes minutes it will become clean.
You forget that it is possible, and you don't even keep that in your cognition. That is not there as part of you. Always the status-quo life will be a stinking life where a simple reality which can be seen even by a child will be forgotten by you.
In a status-quo life, you read, see, and understand more from your brain than from the Reality. Most of the time the spelling mistakes you make while you read a newspaper, or magazine, or your Ipod will be very funny, because you don't read from there, you read from your brain.
When you read something for the second time and third time you will realize, 'Oh, this is what is there! But I thought this is what is there!' Even while you are seeing, you don't see the object you are reading from, you see from the brain. In the status-quo life, you are almost caught in the cobweb of thinking, which is a very suffocating karma pattern. A mental pattern which does not let you relate with reality.
Seeking is the decision to melt you and reinvent you. To melt you and mould you as you want. I tell you, the greatest blessing in life is not even God's grace, but seeking for God's grace. It is not even enlightenment, seeking the enlightenment.
Seeking is the time you can enjoy the glory of Enlightenment, because after you become enlightened, You are that, what is there separately to enjoy.
Seeking is the real honeymoon. Seeking is the real time and space where you can reinvent yourself, where you can melt, go on melting, melting, and melting.
An ordinary human being from the birth to the death, he goes on freezing, freezing, and freezing himself. He life is just hijacked by his hormones. By the time he wakes up, he has already landed in death. In the birth he takes off, in a few minutes hormones put the knife on your throat and says, 'fly the plane as I say, where I want.' You are hijacked. When the hormones say, 'come on land here.' When you land, the land is death.
It is just hormones hijacking you. The so called normal life is hormonal hijack. Rarely when you fall in love with something or some person, you develop the ability to reinvent yourself, reorganize yourself, awaken yourself,