Want a holiday from life?
Don't think that your hatred of work, and your constant desire for a holiday, is a simple thing!
Understand: that part of you which asks for a vacation from the flow of life is your biggest enemy. The hangover of the need for a holiday is nothing but that perversion in you which is fascinated by death, which constantly entertains the idea of death in you.
Please understand, there is one part of you which has a constant desire to shrink, to die. One part of your bio-memory carries some pattern of hatred of life. It is that anti-life hangover which expresses as the deep desire for a holiday.
When you are fulfilled in life, you never ask for a holiday. You don't need a holiday from life. And even if you take a holiday, when you do it out of fulfillment, you will enjoy it and return rejuvenated to your routine life. In fact, you will not even feel that your routine life is different from a holiday!
But when you try to take a holiday to escape from life, you will never be fulfilled. Even if you take a holiday, you will see, you will be restless in
a few hours or a few days. I tell you, till you are just tired of the idea of holiday, life does not start for you.
I feel I am alive, joyful, radiating, when I go on enriching people. If people are not there, it is not as if I am going to miss them. I just sit in my samadhi, in my kevalatva – in my aloneness.
But even in that kevalatva, I am enriching somebody who is asking for my help! Even in my aloneness, I am only going to enrich people who are asking to be enriched. Then why not use this body also to enrich people?
Commitment to others gives you a bone structure to run your life. It is like having a road ready for your car to run! Holiday is like rocky terrain where you cannot run your life.
Desire for holiday is a poison pattern sitting in you - constantly making you break your integrity and authenticity.
- 1) Write down all the times when you were working on a project dear to your heart
- 2) Ask yourself did boredom and tiredness bother you at those times?