DSP: Final Layers
Now let's go into the meditation of Vijnanamaya kosha. It is the same thing but a little deeper. In the manonmaya kosha I was saying don't even bother to get clutched or get unclutched. Now in the same way you will sit but with the help of the master. Now I will also help you to churn your inner being. I will also be helping you to go inside; to your inner space, or to the space beyond the emotions.
Please sit straight, close your eyes. Be unclutched even from the thought of being unclutched. Don't even remember you are supposed to be unclutched. Just be.
Yes, now it is time to work on the anandamaya kosha. This means that even the bliss you are feeling should not bind you by the knowledge of this truth or by meditating on this truth. You are supposed to unclutch even from this; even this should not make you dependant on something. You are not supposed to be dependent even on this.
Don't even clutch yourself with the feeling of joy with the feeling of devotion, with the feeling of gratitude. Let you be very clear. Even the feeling of devotion or gratitude can be one more shaft. Just be completely unclutched. Unclutch yourself even from that devotion and gratitude. If you can unclutch even from that, you will see that instead of having devotion to some other form either guru or God or anything, you will divert the whole energy and attention into your own self; into your own being.
Instead of guru bhakti, devotion to master, it will become atma bhakti, devotion to Self. Instead of just having guru bhakti you will have atma bhakti, it will turn towards your own being. The attention, the energy and you will start, I always tell people, people come and ask me, Swamiji what can I do for you?
I tell them, get enlightened that is the only service you can do for me. Nothing else can be done, whatever else you do will create only problem for me. Even if you try to become ashramite I will have only one more problem.
Nothing else can be done, so unless you get enlightened and till you get enlightened I will be having problem out of you. If you get enlightened I can count one problem less. That is the only possible way you can do. If you really want to do some service not only for me, but for the world, the only way is to completely unclutch yourself.
Understand that by your very nature, by your very being, you are unclutched. All your fears about how can I drop the identity is the fear of losing identity which you are showing to the outer world and the identity which you are showing to yourself. You are afraid that you may lose the identity which you are showing to the outer world, that you will lose all those things if you are unclutched, money, wealth, car, house, wife and whatever else you have. You are afraid that you may lose the outer world.
The identity which you are carrying inside, your morality and understanding about life, you are afraid you may lose this identity if you are unclutched. Be very clear, that is the cunning way mind keeps you under the control.
For example, if one of your employees wants to exploit you, first thing he will do is to convince you that you can't do business or survive without him. Without his help you can't survive is the first thing he will do Somehow, he will convince you and once you are convinced you can't do without him, your job or your business. You are ready to be exploited. You are ready to be exploited. Now you are ready, easily you can be cheated, you can be exploited.
Same way, first thing mind does is to convince you that without mind you can't live in your outer world or be balanced in the inner world. You can't be balanced in the outer world or you can't be balanced in the inner world. The moment mind convinces you that mind is a basic need to live in the outer world and in the inner world, you are gone. Then you will see that every inch your being is exploited, at every level you are exploited.
Your fear to drop the mind is nothing but fear created by the mind itself, otherwise naturally you will be liberated from the mind. Let me show you a simple example of how a hunter catches a bird with a trap. A small stick is tied between two trees. When it is hanging and when a bird comes and sits on it, automatically because of the weight, it turns upside down. Because the stick turns upside down, the bird that is sitting on the stick just holds on to the stick is afraid that if it lets go of the stick it will fall and die, or hurt itself.
The foolish bird will be hanging on to this stick in fear. After half and hour or one hour, slowly the hunter will come and put it in the cage and go. The bird, just out of its own foolishness is hanging on to the stick. The bird doesn't know if it lets go, if it relaxes, simply it can fly.
But logically if you think, what will be the truth, logically 'oh, if I open my wings, if I fly, I will fall and hurt myself. I may die or I may have injury. I may hurt myself'. That is the logical fear. The bird must be logical or very intellectual, or great philosopher. It knows everything about gravity, but not practical. It knows everything about gravity; it must be a great scientist; all Newton's theories it knows, but it is not very practical. It doesn't know the potential power of it's being. It will be just hanging, hanging, hanging, and it will not let go. He will not relax.
You know that if it opens his wings and if it lets go it can just fly. But the bird is hanging with the fear that if it relaxes it may fall and die. You too are hanging with your mind. Let you be very clear, you are hanging with the same fear. Just like the bird you too are hanging with your mind. You don't understand that if you relax, if you let go, you can just fly.
You can liberate yourself with the simple truth that you can live without mind and you can just liberate yourself. But when you carry this fear that without mind it is difficult to live, you will be hanging just like that bird.
One more thing, the bird is hanging because of an insecurity feeling. In a few minutes the hunter will come, not only will it lose its freedom that it was having, it will lose the stick that it is holding because the hunter will take it away. Same way if you are hanging with your identity, not only you are going to lose the enlightenment or the liberation, even your identity will be taken away when death comes.
Just like the hunter death will come and he will just take you and put you in the cage and go. Just understand this one example. How the bird is hanging without the courage to let go you too are afraid to let go. If it relaxes, at the most it may for a few moments have to balance itself, that's all. Then it can just fly, just take off. How foolish this bird is to hang on out of insecurity and fear. In the same manner you are hanging with your identity. You are catching and trying your best to feel secure by holding on to this identity.
Now it is time, let you relax; let you relax from the identity that you are showing to the outer world and from the identity which you are carrying with yourself and experience that you are unclutched. In anandamaya kosha meditation is much deeper. Actually no instruction is necessary. Sitting with the master is anandamaya kosha. We call that in Sanskrit Upanishad, just sitting. In Zen they say just sitting, Zazen. Zazen and Upanishad are techniques to penetrate the anandamaya kosha.
By now, every one of you knows how to sit with yourselves. You can sit even hours together just without fighting with yourself. With the simple one truth, you are unclutched. If you are clutched, be clutched, if you are unclutched, unclutched. Nothing needs to be done; neither do you need to create a shaft that you are clutched nor do you need to create a shaft that you are clutched. One simple truth can do such a big alchemy inside you. This one truth can move mountains, samsara sagara (ocean of life and death cycle) itself you can move. You can go beyond even the samsara sagara, with this single truth.
If you have anything to share or any question, I will spend a little more time with your questions or with your experiences, then we will enter into the meditation and energy darshan. Let me tell one more thing, energy darshan is nothing but my trying to help you to be unclutched. I'm trying to give you a solid experience of that energy so that you can stay in that same being unclutched throughout your life and after life.
Q: When I close my eyes I feel pulsing sensation, a wave taking over my body. I feel one with energy flowing through me and when I open my eyes life is flowing spontaneously. Thank you for being in my life. Thank you.
Q: During the anandamaya kosha, I feel energy flowing into my forehead. The experience was soothing and pervading the whole head. During anandamaya kosha I experienced maybe1000 petal lotus on the crown of the head. Thank you very much for everything Swamiji.
A: Beautiful. These are all beautiful experiences. Unclutch yourself from these experiences as well; you will go into much deeper experiences. Let me tell you that when you unclutch even from these experiences you get such tremendous power and strength, it will be so easy for you to unclutch from these two identities. Nothing can bind you. It will be so easy and you will be just flowing with the whole spontaneous life itself.
Q: Swamiji, last time when I did the NSP (LBP 2) with you, when we did the third eye meditation and you told us not to concentrate I was flooded with energy and I got very high, like I took a drug and now the same thing is happening. What are you doing?
A: That's nice. Surely I am not giving any drug. Why does this happen? Actually you are experiencing, we call in Sanskrit, madur shakti. This means the immortal energy. It is good actually. But let go of even this.