Be Un-clutched
(2006 Discourse delivered at Agape, USA)
The subject is 'Be un-clutched'.
Before we enter into this subject, few things about these words un-clutching itself.
The other day one person asked me, 'Master, from where did you find this word 'unclutched'? Is this your own creation?'
I said, 'No; this teaching or this technique is the product, outcome of 5000 years of research and development done by one million inner world scientists in more than 10 million inner science laboratories. This technology itself is followed by more than one billion people around the globe'.
The unclutching is the technology or the product of a great spiritual tradition, what we call the Vedic tradition. It is the essence of the inner science. It is the essence of the eternal wisdom, eternal truth.
Scientist is a man who creates a formula to reproduce the product or experience of the outer world. A mystic, spiritual mystic or spiritual master is a person who creates a formula to reproduce the experience of the inner world.
A scientist creates a formula for the outer world. For example, Newton saw an apple falling from the tree. Suddenly some truth is revealed to him. He understood something in that moment; one glimpse of truth. He was able to reproduce the understanding that happened in him through a clear formula in someone else. That is why he is called a scientist.
Same way if you create a technique to reproduce a spiritual experience of the inner world, you are a mystic. Millions of mystics have worked together and created many techniques to reproduce the inner experience in every being. They created techniques to reproduce the experience, which they had in every being.
The un-clutching or to be un-clutched is one of the great techniques created by these mystics, the inner scientists. Again and again the Vedic seers, the Vedic rishis, the Vedic mystics have emphasized that by our very nature we are eternal bliss. Please understand not only the Vedic seers, the mystics belonging to all the traditions, emphasize this one truth.
Usually in the spiritual world people do not agree with each other so easily. In the outer world agreeing with each other is more than the spiritual world, because here everybody expresses their own experience. Whichever way they can express their experiences they bring it out. So naturally as many masters so many paths. You can say as many disciples so many paths.
Even if masters say the same thing each disciple understands in his own way and expresses in his own way; as many followers there are, so many paths.
Mystics do not agree with each other so easily. There's a beautiful verse in our scriptures saying that if two rishis speak the same thing, be very clear, one of them is false. It means that he is not experienced. Man who has experienced cannot speak the same words. He will be original, he will be creative, he will be expressive and he will not be a copy. That is why each mystic expresses his truth in his own way, each master expresses in his own way.
The underlying current, the truth, the experience itself is one and the same. The experience is one and the same. The experience of Buddha, the experience of Krishna, the experience of Jesus, all the experiences are one and the same. But the expressions do differ. That is the reason mystics do not agree, do not connect and do not say the same thing.
If you ask about marriage someone will say don't marry. If you ask Mahavira about marriage, he will say no, don't marry. Be a celibate; that is the way for enlightenment, he would say. If you ask some rishi he will say there is nothing wrong in marrying, you can marry once; that is a nice way. If you ask some other mystic he will say you can marry three or four times, nothing wrong.
If you marry three or four times then enlightenment becomes a basic need. It becomes a question of survival.
Each mystic has his own ideas, his own way of expressing the truth, his own way of guiding the people, his own way of showing the path to the seekers. But at one point almost all the mystics of the universe, all the masters who appeared on the planet earth agreed on one point. That one point is by your very nature you are bliss. They said that by your very nature you are in bliss. Your nature is eternal bliss.
Somehow in this one point, every mystic, every master agrees. So it must be the basic truth, it must be the eternal truth; so it must be sanatana, meaning eternal, ever present. That must be the reason why all the mystics and masters agreed on this one message. When I say be un-clutched I mean, experience the true nature of your being which is eternal bliss.
As of now all our problems, all our difficulties are just because of our clutching. The basic truth is this; you are beyond these two identities that you display. One is the identity that you are showing to the outer world, the identity that you project to the outer world and make others believe that is you. The other is the identity that you are showing to the inner world, the identity you project to yourself and what you believe as you.
You are beyond the identity that you show to the outer world and you are beyond the identity that you show to yourself. When you unclutch from these two identities you start experiencing eternal bliss.
First thing that we need to understand is this. The identity that we show to the outer world and the identity that we carry inside and believe to be us are both pure lies; no, I should say impure lies. The identity that you project to the outer world and the identity that you carry inside both are the thoughts selected randomly, illogically, in an unconnected way and clutched into a shaft.
The identity which you show to the outer world will always be something more than what you are because from the beginning your schools, colleges, universities, and society teach you how to sell yourself, how to market yourself constantly; you become a utility. So naturally you have to show yourself to the outer world as being more than what you are.
So the ahankar, that's what we call the externally projected ego or identity in Sanskrit, this identity that you show to the outer world will be always more than what you are. The mamakar, you inner ego, the identity that you show yourself will be always less than what you really are.
Constantly you carry guilt and constantly you carry low self-esteem. We chisel and work on ourselves; we do not accept ourselves as we are. People always tell me, 'Master, I don't think I have low self-esteem'.
I tell them whatever idea or whatever image, identity you carry about you less than you being God is low self-esteem, because you are God*.* Understand whatever self-esteem you carry about you less than you being God is low esteem. Whatever you believe as you is a lie. You are something more than, much, much more than what you project to the outer world and what you project to yourself.
When you un-clutch you will realize the truth. What you thought as you, your identity, whatever you thought as you about yourself is nothing but few thoughts randomly, illogically picked up from the huge thought waves that are rising in you. These are connected in a very illogical way, clutched in an illogical way. You carry that identity and project to the outer world and sometimes project to yourself and start believing it to be true.
Whatever you think as you and whatever you project as you, the identity, which you show to the outer world and the identity that you show to you yourself, both will always be in conflict with each other. The identity, which you project to the outer world, and the identity that you carry as you will constantly be fighting. The more the gap between these two the more the tensions will be in you. More the gap between these two, more the tension. Tension is nothing but the gap between the identity that you are showing to the outer world and the identity that you are showing to yourself.
The un-easiness or the dis-easeness between these two identities is the disease. The dis-easeness between these two is what I call disease. All we need to understand is, by our very nature we are unconnected, illogical, independent, un-clutched thoughts. The more you understand this truth the more you'll experience the moksha or liberation in your life.
For example if you have one million thoughts in your mind, you just pick up few thoughts in a very random way, clutch them and start believing in those thoughts. You start thinking you are that, your past is that, your life is that and your identity is that.
I can show few examples, few understandings: the sufferings, the pains- the pains which you had ten years ago, the pains you had nine years ago, the pains which you had eight years ago, the pains which you had seven years ago they are all independent, unconnected incidents that happened due to different reasons, at different situations, for different purpose, in different space at different time.
But mentally for your reference sake, you archive all these experiences in one file. Usually you save all these experiences in one file. There is nothing wrong in archiving, but by and by you start believing that they are all connected.
First you start archiving them for utility purpose; then you start believing that all these pains that happened in your life is connected. You come to a decision that your life is pain; your life is suffering. The moment you come to the decision that your life is a pain or your life is suffering, then you have created hell for yourself. We have created hell for ourselves.
One more thing, when you strongly start believing that your last ten years have been filled with suffering filled with depression, you have now created a mental set up. Naturally then you will start believing your future is also going to be painful and filled with depression. For example till yesterday you were only walking, you were not able to fly. You know about your past; you were not flying, you were only walking. Can you believe from tomorrow you can start flying? You can't. You know tomorrow also you will be only walking. Of course you can fly on a plane that's different!
Last few years if you didn't have wings naturally you know that next few years also you are not going to have wings. Same way if you have decided that the last few years were painful for you, they were filled with suffering and depression, you will be very clear that in your future the next few years are also going to be like that.
That's why I always tell people that if you connect all the sufferings of your life and create a shaft of pain - my life is pain, my life is depression- then you have created hell for you. You forget the beautiful, wonderful moments, the joyful incidents that happened many times again and again between these sufferings.
When you start believing in the pain shaft, you forget the joyful moments that happened in your life. Let's say there are million thoughts in you and you pick up only ten thoughts from those. You clutch them to create a shaft and you start believing that these small ten thoughts or clutched shaft is the representation of million thoughts.
Your life is filled with millions of experiences; but when you pluck just a few painful experiences randomly which are independent, illogical, unconnected and clutch them and create a shaft and start believing that this shaft is the representation of your past. You think that my past was pain, my past was depression, my past was suffering when you start believing this and you create hell for yourself.
Your faith, your belief, your understanding about your past plays a major role in designing and creating your future. If you strongly believe your life was pain, your life was suffering, naturally you will strongly believe that you future too is going to be pain, going to be suffering.
Creating the shaft is the first original sin. Creating the pain shaft is the original sin that you commit. I always tell people by your very nature you are unconnected, illogical, independent, un-clutched thoughts.
People get the shock of their lives when they listen to this truth. Of course sometimes truth hurts; not sometimes always. If it is not hurting be very clear it is just a quote. It is not truth if it is fitting with your identities. Truth always takes you beyond your identities; truth always hurts. When I tell people you are nothing but unconnected, independent, illogical, unconnected thoughts they get a shock.
They say: how you can say this Master. If you do a very simple experiment for just ten minutes, sit and pen down whatever thoughts go on in your mind. Sit alone and write down whatever is going on in your mind. Don't edit. It is an experiment for you; don't ever show this to anyone else; at least not to you family members. Visualize as if you are connected to transcription software. Just like how transcription software transcribes everything, transcribe whatever is going on in your mind.
Read that paper only once and you will understand what I meant when I said you are nothing but unconnected, illogical, independent, unclutched thoughts. For example if you see a dog in the street you will immediately remember the dog that you were afraid of when you were young or with which you used to play with when you were young. The next thought would be thoughts about your childhood, third the teacher and the room you used to sit in the school and the fourth the place where your teacher used to stay.
You can see the thoughts flowing. There is no logical connection between the dog you saw on the street and the teacher who taught you in school. But in few seconds you just drifted away. There was no logical connection between the two but your thoughts are moving away, drifting away. Understand by your very nature you are unconnected, independent, illogical and unconnected thoughts. So many things are happening in you.
For the sake of your convenience you pick up few thoughts randomly, clutch them and create a shaft and start believing that shaft is you or that is a representation of your past, which is your identity.
It's like there are ten thousand flowers in different colors. You just pick a few flowers randomly and create a garland. You start thinking that garland is the representation of the ten thousand flowers. No, that garland cannot be a representation of the ten thousand flowers.
Same way the archives which you created or the shaft that your life is a pain, sometimes by mistake you even create a shaft with the idea that that your life is joy; but it is very rare, and it is by mistake. Anyhow even if you created that shaft, whatever shaft you created whether life is pain or life is joy, that shaft is not the representation of your past; that is not the totality of you. Understand, you pick up thoughts in a very random way and connect them, clutch them and create a shaft.
For your understanding archival purpose, you collect all the painful thoughts and create an idea that your life was depression, your life was pain and you create a pain shaft. The moment you create a pain shaft your life is hell. Because after the pain shaft is created whatever goes on in the conveyor belt, you will not bother. You will only pick up the painful incidents and again and again confirm what you believe.
Please understand we do not collect arguments and pass judgments; we pass judgments and collect arguments. Our life is not collecting arguments and passing judgments; our life is already ready made judgments. We just collect arguments to support our judgments.
So if you have already decided and passed the judgment that your life is painful, life is suffering, and your life is depression then you will be just waiting to get more and more arguments to strengthen the judgments that you have already made, which you have already created. Once in a while you may create a joy shaft, connecting all these joyful thoughts. You may start believing life is joy.
Again even if you create a shaft that life is joy you will create an idea that there is some object that gives you joy. You will believe that there is some object that is the reason for the joy and you will try to hang on to that object or a person or an incident or a space. You may identify your joy with an object or a person or a space, with something. Now you will try again and again to bring that back in your life, to bring that person, to bring that object, to bring that space, to bring that same incident in your life again and again.
Remember this: anything that you try to bring again and again will not give you the same excitement as it gave you the first time. It can only lead to addiction, not happiness.
The first time when you enjoy a sweet is a wonderful experience. The excitement is totally different from subsequent experiences. Same way with a person also first time the experience is totally different, the excitement is totally different. Later on the excitement will not be the same; the experience will not be the same.
That's why we call that experience as honeymoon, not honey sun. Have you heard the term honey sun? No, honeymoon means the excitement will stay only for sixteen days. What is the life of a moon? Sixteen days. So that excitement will also be alive for sixteen days. When you try to bring the same person, same object, same thing again and again in your life, suddenly you will realize the same excitement is not there. So whether you have created a pain shaft or a joy shaft both the ways you have created hell for yourself.
Connecting the thoughts and creating the shaft is the original sin; that is the first sin, nothing else. Be very clear, connecting thoughts and creating shafts is the first sin. So both your identities, the identity that you show yourself and the identity you show to the outer world are nothing but clutched thoughts, the un connected un-clutched, independent, illogical thoughts are collected and clutched and shaft is being created.
When you create a shaft suffering is created, pain is created.
If you believe and create the pain shaft, naturally you will try to break the pain shaft; who will want to live in pain? Or if you believed and created the joy shaft in your life, naturally you will try to elongate, extend the shaft, because everybody wants joy to be there. But understand one thing, you can neither break this shaft nor elongate this shaft because the shaft does not exist. It is purely a myth, a myth created by you. The mind that you carry is a myth created by you. Mind is a myth. That is the ultimate truth.