Part 4: Unclutched
When you create even one shaft, one idea, you have this problem, you have that problem. Even when you don't have the problem you will be thinking that you have it. You can see this in your own life. You are taught by your mother at a young age that if you go out in the rain and get wet, you will catch a cold and you will have wheezing. After you become older, you don't even have to go in the rain; all you need to do is to watch the rain from behind a window and you will sneeze. The moment you see the rain through the window, you will start sneezing.
Sometimes by mistake you will observe that you will not sneeze. Even though it is raining but somehow you are not feeling cold, you are not sneezing; what happened? You suspect something has gone wrong and meditate for two days, until it comes to you; until you start sneezing.
Because the moment you start believing something, the moment you start connecting that shaft and believing, even if it doesn't happen you are not comfortable. You wanted that shaft to be executed and only then you feel the identity is safe. You are ready to sacrifice anything to protect your identity. Be very clear, including your body. You can see that in your life your identity is the one thing you don't want to lose. You protect your identity. To protect the identity you will do anything. Actually people can sacrifice anything. It is easy to sacrifice anything, it is easy to sacrifice wealth it is easy to sacrifice relationships. It is easy to sacrifice your wife, because it is constantly hurting you.
It is easy to sacrifice all these things but it is not easy to sacrifice the identity. It is very easy to sacrifice things that hurt. I have seen many people who give away all their wealth and possessions and run away to the Himalayas. They will be sitting in the Himalayas having given up so many things, their wealth and everything, but they are not ready to give up the seat in which they are sitting.
In the Himalayas, in the temples, they will fight for the place where they sit. They would have given up so many things, but they will not be able to give up that chair or the seat where they are sitting. Even if they manage to give up their seat, they are not ready to give up their identity also. I am this I am that. It is very difficult to give up the identity.
You will sacrifice anything for the sake of retaining your identity. All your diseases are nothing but sacrificing your body for the sake of your identity. When you start believing you have an identity, when you start believing you are somebody, according to that belief you alter your body. According to that belief, you force yourself to act.
Your body creates or maintains a particular disease according to the identity that you create. Tiredness, chronic fatigue, all these things are directly related to this shaft of identity. You start believing that completely independent experiences such as yesterday's tiredness and the day before yesterday's tiredness, and the tiredness that you experienced one month ago are connected. You link them by saying that by 8 tonight I will become tired and you create a shaft. By 6 o'clock itself you will start preparing your mind, 'By 8 o'clock I have to fulfill my belief, I have to fulfill my fate, I have to fulfill my identity'.
You start creating the dullness or lethargic feeling by 6 o'clock itself. You have to prove your identity because you created it. Sometimes you may forget to prove your identity to the outer world, but you will never miss to prove your identity to yourself. Because if the outer world doesn't believe your identity it is ok, but you yourself start suspecting your identity is too dangerous. You will never let that happen.
Be very clear, I'm exposing all the cunning games that you are playing with yourself. You will never let down your identity with yourself. Because without that identity you will be afraid, what to do? How to be? You need to be. You can't be without anything, so you have to be somebody, so you create some identity. All Your identity is a pure myth.
I can generalize and tell you that these are the usual problems that you suffer in the annamaya kosha, in the first layer. Because of your identity and because of your belief, you connect and see the shaft and create a problem.
You can come up with your questions now. For a few minutes you can share some of your understanding, how you are creating shaft and suffering related to this annamaya kosha and what you understand about that now. You can share your understanding or you can ask some question. Anything related to this annamaya kosha we will analyze now. Layer by layer we will analyze. Layer by layer we will understand and we will throw light on what you do not understand. We will apply this same truth and try to liberate ourselves from the shaft we are creating or that we think we are creating.
Again, whether that shaft exists or not, we don't know; but we constantly think we have created that shaft. So now we will take a few minutes to share some of your understanding now or you can ask any question. To share some of your understanding you need to have the courage to laugh at the drama that you play. If you don't have the courage you can't open up, because again you again will be protecting the identity that you are carrying.
Only if you feel courageous enough to laugh at the foolish drama that you are constantly enacting and only if you understand that it is really a foolish drama, share; otherwise you can carry on no problem. Only when you understand the foolish drama that you are enacting in the name of the identity that you carry, only then will you be able to laugh at it. You will then be able to open up to the understanding of what you are doing or how you are playing with this shaft.
If you ask your questions I can give you the customized truth. Now I have given the truth in a generalized way. If you open up with your problems we can throw more light on them. When I designed this two day DSP program, I thought I'd design a program where I don't have to speak much. I am tired of speaking. In the last 3 years, 4000 hours of DVD lectures we have compiled on what I have spoken. We have huge archives. I don't know what all I have spoken.
Q: The continuity of the pain seems to create the shaft, not the continuity of the thoughts. Is this correct?
A: No. Please be very clear. Unless you create the shaft you are not able to identify the pain, or as continuous pain. You see something is happening in your stomach. You will not call that as pain unless you bring your memories of earlier similar experiences that you file in a folder titled pain. Ten years ago what happened in your stomach, 9 years ago what happened in your stomach and 8 years ago that happened in your stomach, all those memories you put in a file titled pain in one corner.
The moment something starts happening in you, the moment you experience the feeling in your stomach, you pick up that file. Unless you pick up the file you will not even recall that title pain. Be very clear, the very first word itself is from the shaft.
One more thing, this may look mystical, but let me be honest, Patanjali says very clearly, any pain can be used as a door to enlightenment.
Actually I was shocked, only at the time of pain you shout, Oh God, oh God. How can it be used as a door to enlightenment? He says do not label. Patanjali is a great scientist, do not label, just look what is going on. Just look, the way in which a small child sees something new, with all excitement and curiosity. Just look what is happening, just see you will understand two things.
First thing, your body is rejuvenating itself, reconstructing itself. That process is what you call as pain. The next thing, when you don't label it as a pain, then you won't have to fight with that feeling. When you label that as a pain, not only are you fighting with the self healing process, or reconstruction process, rejuvenation process, when you fight you also elongate the process and have more pain.
You may think, oh only when you have pain you will understand these things Swamiji. Please be very clear, it is not that I never had any pain or it is not that I don't have any pain. If you sit in my chair and do the job then you will understand, hours together, at least here only 2 days workshops, in Bharat 4 day's workshops, any workshop is 4 days, average 18 hours I work. 18 hours I sit in this same pose. Of course, at least here the chairs are a little comfortable. In Bharat chairs are not like this, not this comfortable.
One more thing, all American chairs are made for back pain. Whenever I sit in a wooden chair in Bharat I never feel anything, that's important. In Bharat the wooden chairs are completely balanced. But maybe here some company is creating the chair and another one is creating back pain medicine and they are working together, who knows? But these chairs are all made for back pain, that's for sure.
Anyhow, it is not that I don't have any pain or anything. When I travel 18 hours in the flight, I do have the pain, I do experience pain. Of course, I don't label that as pain. I just relax and look into it. Even before labeling I look into it, what is it? And the same way fatigue as well; when the fatigue starts, look into it.
People who live around me know that in the morning when I come out of my room, my face and my voice will be same as when I go back to my room after 20 hours. Not magic, not because of enlightenment, be very clear, it's not because of any magic or enlightenment.
Just look into it. Do not create shaft. This is only a simple technique. All you need to do is not create a shaft; a shaft which is not there. Just remember you are unclutched, and you will not create shaft. The fatigue that you created yesterday, the fatigue that you felt one year ago and the fatigue that you felt two years ago, they are no way connected to each other; they are independent incidents. Something came up and happened, over.
But you keep them in a safe file for future reference. Like how the records they keep in the hospitals, just like that you keep a file. I have chronic fatigue problem, big file. 7 o'clock means I am tired, 8 o'clock means, I can't do anything after that. After 8 :15 if somebody asks me something, I will shout at them, I'll be tired.
You have a big file and you refer that file and always fulfill that file. Because only when you fulfill that file you feel that you exist. Otherwise you feel your identity is shaken. You are not the same person anymore. Somehow you want to believe you are the same person everyday.
Be very clear, 7 years ago, the person who existed in your name and today the person who is existing in your name are not the same persons. Understanding, maturity, of course, in some people these never happen, that is different. At least age, information, all these things are totally different, but somehow you try to retain the identity. You don't trust you also grow and you don't trust that others grow. Of course, you don't trust that others grow that is ok, that I can understand. But, you don't trust that you are also growing.
When you don't trust, you can't change the fatigue. Even if you have felt the fatigue one year ago, now there is every possibility that you can update yourself. Your body may have overcome. You may not have that problem now, but you are not interested in trusting that. You want to retain the identity and you can sacrifice anything except your identity. That is why you try a very cunning, a very polite, but very cunning game. This whole thing is just the game that you are playing.
One person came to me complaining of a chronic headache. I said it is all in your mind, why don't you give me a little time to explain and try to understand and then it will disappear. He says, 'When I come to you with the pain, instead of consoling me you are saying it is all in my mind' This is a deep disrespect to me.
I told him, 'Please understand it may look like deep disrespect, but that is the truth.'
People get really offended when I say it is all in your mind because their identity is attacked. I'm straight away attacking their identity. See, you may feel offended but what am I supposed to say? Oh, I can say to you, ok you will become alright, that is not a big thing. You are great, you are nice person, I will heal you, all these things are ok.
One more thing; let me be very clear, very open. Now I am opening another secret. Healing is nothing but giving you one more shaft. You have one shaft, you start believing somehow you have the body, which itself is a great lie. You come with that great lie to me. First lie is that you have the body. Second lie is that you have a disease in that body. Now somehow I've managed to take that one lie and replace it with another lie. So, you have the healed body, that's all. And you heal yourself, be very clear.
It's purely playing with lies. Somehow I take that one lie that you have that diseased body. The basic lie is that you have body; because you don't have a body. That is the truth. You may play with this body but you don't have this body. You are playing with this body or you decided to play with this body. Anyhow that is the first lie.
The second lie is that you have a diseased body; that is the second lie built on the first lie. When you come to me your second level, third level lies can be easily operated and opened up. The first level lie is the difficult issue. The second and third level lies are all superficial lies. They are all simple beliefs and it's very simple to change them. I just take this lie and replace that lie. You have a healed body, over. And you think Swami has done a great help for me.
Let me be very clear, this whole thing is a myth. If you don't change your mental set up you will bring the pain back. Because it is your mental set up that brings the disease. Unless we go to the depth and touch the core the mental set up cannot be changed. I've always seen when people do the meditation and get my healing are healed once and for all. They never get the disease back. That is why I ask people who come to me for healing as to why they don't come for our meditation programs?
Conscience is given to you by the people who don't follow their own conscience. Conscience as such cannot be followed. Even if you try to perfect it, there will be some ideal that you can't reach. It's like you run behind the ideal and the ideal is running behind something else. Both of you are chasing something which nobody knows.
Do all of you know the 3 women story?
Three women died and reached the Yama's court. Yama is the Hindu God of death. Yama started asking them questions so that he can pass judgment. Yama asked the first woman, 'Did you live a pure life?'
She said, 'Yes master, yes Lord, I lived a pure life; even mentally I have not done any mistake. I have lived such a beautiful pure life'.
Yama looked at his laptop and the record confirmed what she said. Yama says, 'oh, alright, that's nice. You lived a pure life. Here. Take this golden key to the Heavenly Suite and enjoy.' She went her way.
Second lady arrived and Yama asked, 'Did you live a pure life?'
She put her head down, 'Master, physically I lived a pure life, but mentally whenever I used to watch movies, and I see the male actors I felt a little tempted; but physically I lived a pure life. I never did anything wrong'.
Yama once again checked on his laptop, saw the record, 'Alright, at least you told me the truth, you are honest. So have the silver key, go and enjoy second class junior suite'.
When the third lady arrived Yama asked, 'Did you live a pure life?'
She put her head down, 'I was a dancer in a night club and I have done whatever you can imagine and also whatever you cannot imagine. I have done everything. Only you have to save me, Lord'.
Yama looked this way and that way and said, 'Here, have my room key, I'll be there in a few minutes'.
Be very clear. Who ever gives you conscience they are giving you their room keys. Only those people who hide their personal lives from others try to invoke the conscience of others.
Let you be very clear, creating impossible ideals is the best way to rule people. Once you create an impossible ideal and insert into someone's brain it creates guilt through out his life and he becomes a slave. Let me tell you, real morality is not when you break yourself or when you turn schizophrenic. See, the morality of schizophrenia, being torn between the desire of reaching the ideal and the guilt of not being able to, is not going to help you. You suffer as a schizophrenic.
Let you be very clear that is in no way going to help you. That is why I tell you conscience is poor substitute for consciousness. If you are conscious, a different kind of morality will be around you. You will be just radiating so much of love, so much of joy and so much of ecstasy. Not only will you never sin, you will not do anything immoral and you will inspire so many people to be like you. Wherever you are, you will awaken so many people. You will create true morality. You will create an enlightened society. You will lead such a beautiful moral life.
One more thing, to tell you honestly, there are so many problems that exist in the west I have not even heard about. Really, sometimes I sit and give my gratitude to the ultimate energy or God or Shiva or whatever I call, 'Oh God, I am so grateful I was born in an Hindu village, not even a city'.
All Hindu cities are completely westernized. In Hindu villages none of these problems exist. I have not even heard about these problems. Especially I went to Dallas last year to the convention of American Association of Physicians of Hindu Origin. I am told nearly 50% of all physicians in the US are of Hindu origin!
The issues that they discussed amazed me. They invited me to attend a session to inspire the youngsters. When they put the questions to me, for the first time I felt like I don't know what to say. I was not able to answer. I told them directly, to tell you honestly, I have never even thought about these problems, forget about knowing the solution. I've never even heard about these problems.
After visiting AAOP my gratitude has multiplied to God, because these youngsters, the western society, the problems which they face, God, I've never even heard about these things. Somehow the eastern society, at least the villages have not been polluted. Not in the cities because the cities cannot be called as the eastern society. In the village society you are not given moralities, you are given more truths. At least in my case, my grandfather and other elders used to sit and explain things to me in detail. They will tell me a lot of stories.
See, whenever you are made to understand, it doesn't stay as conscience, it becomes part of your being. When it is given as a rule it becomes a part of conscience. Here in western societies and even Hindu cities there is nobody to talk to you; no one has time; you are given rules and laws straightaway. Mother is busy in the office, father is busy in the job, and you are sitting here with laws; over. Naturally you will try to break them.
I was fortunate. My elders used to tell me clearly through stories the background for rules, regulations, traditions and rituals; why, what for and what is. The stories were an inspiration. Recently we managed to retrieve a notebook from some of my friends that I used before my enlightenment. So Many things I had written down in that book. When I read it again I was touched by the memories of all those people who had inspired me. See, throughout that book I have not written about a single moral rule. I had written many stories; they had been my only inspiration.
You should be given only inspiration and understanding, never laws. They become techniques. Actually if you receive techniques they will directly lead to consciousness. If you receive only instructions, it will lead to conscience; teachings will only create conscience, techniques will create consciousness.