INTENSITY: KEY TO MY ENLIGHTENMENT EXPERIENCE
When I was twelve years old, I was once sitting on a rock in my hometown in Thiruvanamalai. I used to just casually sit on that rock sometimes. To tell you honestly, I was not even doing some serious meditation that day.
The whole ambience of that place and space was so calm and so beautiful, so I decided to close my eyes. Once I closed my eyes, the intensity of my yearning started taking over me. The intensity to realize myself, my true nature, started possessing me. It started taking possession of me.
My sincere seeking, that "overpowered" me! That is the right word I should use. I just felt, 'What is it that I am seeking? Who is that me who is seeking? Who is that me that is deeply discontented about anything I see, hear? Who is that who is deeply discontented even about my own existence?'
It was such strong taking over for me. That is the right word I will use – "taking over".
The whole being took over with these questions of, 'Who am I that is experiencing this deep discontentment, suffocation, etc.?' I could very clearly see, that heaviness just went into the depths of my Consciousness.
Suddenly, the first thing that happened is: the idea of "inside" and "outside" broke for me. The inner space and outer space broke.
The first experience I had was I was able to see everything around me, above me, below me and behind me. I was able to see 360 degrees! I realized not only was I able to see, but I was able to feel and experience!
I felt that the skin of the stone, on the rock on which I was sitting, and the skin of this body, both carry me equally, in both I exist equally! The air, the breeze, the setting sun, the rising moon, the whole Arunachala Hill (where I was sitting); all the plants, bushes, shrubs, trees, everything, everything, everything, just became so alive! The idea something is inside and something is outside was completely lost!
First, I was able to see in all the ten directions, 360 degrees. Then in the next moment, I realized, not only was I able to see, I was able to experience all of that as me! There was no "inner", there was no "outer", there was no "moving", there was no "unmoving".
The smallest movement of the plants was my movement, and the highest stillness of the center of the Cosmos was my stillness. "Moves" and "moves not", what you call as "near", and what you call as "far off", those concepts were lost. What you call as "inner space"- inside you, and "outer space" outside you, the ideas were forgotten.
I didn't feel vulnerable; I felt powerful. So powerful! I just knew that I am oneness, that I am this Existence! The ignorance just melted down and the intense bliss of Enlightenment expressed in me.
If your consciousness is constantly moving towards the outer world, it is called Restlessness.
If it is constantly moving towards the inner world, it is called Intensity!
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