Depiction of Four States of my transformation
The only thing I can describe was my mental state before meeting THE SUPREME PONTIFF OF HINDUISM BHAGAWAN SRI NITHYANANDA PARAMASHIVAM, after meeting him and after living enlightenment in the drawings below. I can best describe this in the following four phases pictorially:
Phase 1 - State of mind before meeting THE SUPREME PONTIFF OF HINDUISM BHAGAWAN SRI NITHYANANDA PARAMASHIVAM: In the first drawing I am showing my mental state before meeting THE SUPREME PONTIFF OF HINDUISM BHAGAWAN SRI NITHYANANDA PARAMASHIVAM. I would go up in a high energy curve and somehow this high energy curve was not sustained. I would be brought down by whatever incidents happened in our lives – if there was a problem at work, a fight at home, or whatever. This low energy curve would also not last for long. Somehow, healing thoughts or some other source of excitement would pull me back. So I would characterize my state of mind to oscillate between these two states.
Phase 2 – State of mind 1-2 years after meeting THE SUPREME PONTIFF OF HINDUISM BHAGAWAN SRI NITHYANANDA PARAMASHIVAM: After meeting THE SUPREME PONTIFF OF HINDUISM BHAGAWAN SRI NITHYANANDA PARAMASHIVAM I have found quite a change in my mental demeanor. While I may oscillate between high and low energy states, the lows were shallower than the high and I did not oscillate as frequently. Whenever I was in a low state, just the presence of the master pulled me out of the low energy state. So while I was having a lot lesser lows, the form of the master and his presence was helping me. None of this was static. Over time I was also finding that even without the Master's physical presence I was able to pull myself out by the clicks he had given me in terms of His teachings and understandings that would pop-up and pull me out of the low energy curve.
Phase 3 – Immediately after Living Enlightenment Program: In the days after this program, he said whenever there was a situation; clicks would automatically happen and these clicks would pull us out of the low energy curve. It happened exactly the way the master told us it would. For me the impact of living enlightenment was an immediate step change. There was almost no negative curve. Even if I seemed to be going into a low energy situation, I would immediately be aware, and clicks would pop-up just like an internet banner advertisement and pull me up. Also, strangely I noticed that even as little as a day after living enlightenment program, even my highs were also diminished in magnitude.
Phase 4 – Current State: Within a few weeks to a month after the living enlightenment program, I am now seeing the mental demeanor to be completely different. I started finding there was no need for any of the clicks and I would not go into a low energy curve at all. I now feel free from ups and downs, anger or disappointment, happiness or sadness. The curve seems to be a flat line these days. It is intense silence. The intellect is used when it is required and then it seems to rest. This is indeed a wonderful feeling to live in this state.
I am also finding that when I am working with the board of the chemical company, I am able to provide them with sharp, solutions with utmost clarity to a point where I may sometimes say to myself, 'Where did this idea come from!"
There is nothing I have done in this process. It was Masters' grace and compassion showering on us. For this I am eternally grateful to my Master. Now that the engineer in me has described this in a graphical format, I am satisfied. I do not know what exactly happened during this process, but I am also not looking to deeply analyze this new found state without ups and downs in my mental demeanor. It has been truly liberating and I am also finding these days that wherever I am and whatever I do, I am doing it with intensity, with passion, with a feeling of gratitude, with fulfillment and with contentment. What more can I ask for?