FOLLOWING THE WORDS OF THE GURU – PERCIEVE THE SELF WHICH IS ŚIVA
nimiṣānnimiṣādhārdvā yadvākyādvai vimucyate | svātmānaṁ śivamālokya tasmai srīgurave namaḥ || 63 ||
63. Having perceived the Self, who is Śiva, one frees himself (from the shakles of Māyā) within a second or half-a-second by following the words of Guru. Surrender to that ŚriGuru.
(svātmānam)
caitanyaṁ śāśvataṁ śāntaṁ vyomātītaṁ niraṇjanaṁ | nādabindu-kalātītaṁ tasmai srīgurave namaḥ || 64 ||
64. Surrender to that Śri Guru, who is eternal, peaceful, unattached, full of knowledge, beyond the stages of Nāda, Bindu, Kalā and who transcends space, Ākāśa.
[Notes: by saying that he transcends Ākāśa, it is meant that he transcends all the 5 elements-earth, water, fire, air, and ether. Nāda Bindu, Kalā are the stages prior to creation of the Universe. The meaning here is that Guru is beyond all the 3 stages, The disciple, by Guru kripā, is able to transcends the different srages and soar high in the realms of eternal bliss. (nirmalam darsitam yena- is another version in the secondd half of the verse). ]
nirguṇaṁ nirmalaṁ śāntaṁ jaṇgaṁ sthirmeva ca | vyāptaṁ yena jagatsarvaṁ tasmai srīgurave namaḥ || 65 ||
65. That which is beyond the guṇas (sattva, rajas, tamas), faultless, taintless, peaceful, that which is moving and unmoving, that which pervades the whole world, surrender to that Śri Sadguru.
sa pitā sa ca me mātā sa bandhuḥ sa ca devatā | saṁsāra-moha-nāśāya tasmai srīgurave namaḥ || 66 ||
66. He is the father, He is the mother, He is the relative and God to free us from the delusion of saṁsāra; therefore I surrender to ŚriGuru.
Please understand, I am your father, mother, friend, beloved and something more. I am the father and mother of your possibility. I am father and mother of what will happen out of you. I am friend and beloved of your possibility.
I am not father and mother of 'you'; I am father and mother of 'your possibility'. I cannot reject your love; it is so beautiful, even though mixed with lot of ignorance and innocence. When a cub brings grass to the lion, lion cannot eat the grass. It will be laughing inside. But it cannot reject the grass because it is mixed with the possibility of 'you.'
I am your father and mother. I cannot reject your love. Same way I cannot accept it. If I accept your love, you will accept you as you are now, which is not the right thing. You will not look up and grow into your possibility.
Understand, I need to accept your love but I need to constantly remind you, you need to become your possibility, I am beloved of your possibility not you. Whenever you expand towards your possibility, you will always see, 'me' just taking you to my heart as a Mother, Father, Beloved and more.
Whenever you try to shrink 'me' to your level—see, first of all there is no 'you' and 'me.' Once you become ashramite, there is only thing, the relationship between you and me, lives through you. If the relationship is flowering, you are joyful. If that relationship is shrinking, shrinking, you are in pain. I tell you, there is no 'you' actually. Of course, long before, there is no 'Me', I have disappeared. The moment you become ashramite, you are also disappearing. There is no 'you' and 'me.' Then what is living in you? The relationship between 'you' and 'me' is only living in you. If the relationship is flowering, you are happy. If it is not flowering, you are suffering. But, there is no separate you.
Whenever you raise to the level of your possibility, the relationship becomes very sweet and beautiful. Whenever you go down, shrink from your possibility, the relationship becomes bitter. Understand, that bitterness goes to your core. Whether my love or my anger, it goes to your core; a smile or a stare, it goes to your core. My smile can make your very being flower, your root flower. When I stare, your very gut will shiver. My staring will never be usual. My love will never be usual. It is alive, living. You might have had ten-thousand hugs, but ten-thousand-one hug will be new and fresh and alive. I might have stared at you one-lakh times, but one-lakh-one staring will be fresh, alive and shivering, frightening. Understand, I have to do the job of neither rejecting you nor accepting you. Human being cannot do this job. Either he falls in love or hates, that's all.
Here I have to completely keep you in my heart and just cut and do the surgery to remove the cancer, remove the tumor. I cannot reject your love and I cannot accept it. Hot love always turns into anger. Your love is too hot. The hot feeling of security always turns as a deep insecurity. The hot fear means —if I have all this, this and this, only then I have security. Security with legs will always become handicap; love that is hot will always become hatred.
Love should have tremendous coolness like Gaṇgā, flowing. In some Purāṇas (historical happenings) they say that Gaṇgā is one more wife of Śivā. No! Śivā made Sati (Devī) into Gaṇgā and then keeps her. Sati is too hot. Dakshāyaṇi is too hot. He makes her into Gaṇgā. Then she can always be Ardhāṇgini, part of Śivā.
Whether you are in a male body or a female body, understand, once you are ashramite, nothing else lives in you, except the relationship between me and you. When that is flowering, you are flowering; when that is shrinking, you are shrinking, that's it.