I am reminded of a story:
One man was giving a sermon. The fellow was so dull and so dead in his speech, that after five minutes, everyone simply left. But still the fellow went on talking. By the time he finished, there was only one man remaining in the hall. When he said his closing line, the man endlessly applauded.
'I am glad you enjoyed my talk', he said to him. The man looked at him and said, 'No, no, that mike is mine!'
So if I simply sit without saying anything, this is only going to happen! It is better to avoid such things!
Anyhow, my words are there to make you stay, to put you into the silence. But actually, even if I stop talking right now, physically you may be silent, but inside, the same nonsense will be going on! So at least when you hear my words, there will be some inner transformation happening and your inner chatter will minimize.
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Understand: I can penetrate you through silence. The same will also happen through words, but it will take some time. But when your being is open I will be able to penetrate you through silence.
When I talk, just feel the silence in the words. Do not listen to the words inside you; hear the sounds outside. Do not hear the words outside, but feel the vibrations. The more silent you are, the more you will be penetrated.
And I do not mean this only now when you are sitting before me; I mean this all the time. Simply become a child who whirls with no intention, just out of innocence. Only when you can do this, you have started surrendering to me.
First understand the nature of logic. Logic always wants everything to be in order; the whole of life should be in order. But the entire universe is not the order that logic understands. The universe is a wonderful chaos! But there is a certain order in it that is its own! But, you are trying to put your order in the chaos. This cannot be done. Another thing: logic wants everything to be fast, to move quickly. And this is the reason why the mind can never meditate. Meditation cannot move quickly; it is a very slow, but very powerful process. Coffee can be instant but meditation cannot! There may be instant coffee but there will never be instant meditation! Calculations of the mind can never be applicable to the natural ways of the universe.
When you become a disciple, the time has come to move away from the mind; to move away from the calculations of the mind - into the love affair of the heart. Only when you move into the space of the heart will you begin to function in totality. Until then, you function either in perfection or in striving for perfection. Once you understand the totality of life, you will no longer take part in the rat race. And to tell you honestly, the thing about the rat race is that even if you win you are still a rat!
When you love deeply, deep trust happens as well. And when you trust, a deep waiting will happen in you; a waiting to merge with your source, a waiting to find the source from where you came, a waiting to completely understand the mysteries of the universe. A person
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who is able to wait forever may even get it now! But a person who wants it now may have to wait forever! Actually, your inability to wait, your impatience, is the real hindrance. It is only deep waiting that will bring you the ultimate.
A senior brahmachari (an unmarried younq spiritual aspirant who undertakes certain austerities) tells swamiji that he tried to run away from the ashram earlier, but there was always something pulling him back.