REALIZE YOUR TRUE NATURE - THE TRUE REVOLUTION
Only a total disconnection from the past can help you grow. There is no question of evolution, it is always only revolution. Evolution can never happen; only revolution can happen. So just drop from your past, just decide totally, consciously, and drop from your past. Don't think, 'Oh, I do not know how to put this whole thing into practice.' No! Simply throw the old personality out. Don't respect your old habits that threaten to come back. Don't respect the old body; don't respect the old mind; don't respect the old conditioning. Simply decide, 'This is how I am going to live from now onwards. This is the way I will live… over!'
A small story, which is a very powerful story:
Once there was a rat in a king's palace. The king wanted to kill the rat.
One day he called his soldier and ordered him to kill it.
When the soldier entered the room, suddenly from somewhere the rat jumped on to his face. He lost his balance, got frightened and ran out of the room, shouting, 'No, no, no! Oh king, the rat is too big. I do not think the rat can be killed by anybody.'
Seeing the frightened and shivering soldier, the king got frightened and thought, 'Oh, this rat is something totally different, I do not know what to do.'
He called the palace cat and ordered it to go and kill the rat.
The soldier told the cat, 'Don't think it is an ordinary rat. I went and was totally shaken, so be careful.'
Anyway the palace cat got ready with all his paraphernalia. He exercised for two to three days at the gym and took a special diet of food. On the day of the fight, he entered the room. Again the rat jumped on the cat's face. The cat got totally frightened, lost its balance and ran out.
Now, the rat became a challenge for the whole country. Even the palace cat could not do anything about it! So the king announced, 'Anybody who kills the rat will be given a special prize. So, many cats were brought. They tried to catch the rat but just couldn't.
In a remote village, an old man had a cat. He thought, 'Why not try my cat?' He asked the cat, 'Will you kill the rat in the king's palace?' The cat said, 'Why not? Let us go.'
The man brought the cat. It was a very lean cat. He let the cat inside the room. The cat simply killed the rat, and came out!
The king asked in utter disbelief, 'How did you do it? Even the palace cat could not do it! How did you have the courage? How did you do it?'
The cat replied, 'What? I am a cat. It is my nature to kill a rat. I just caught the rat, that's all!'
Understand that while your nature is so clean and straightforward, simply being influenced by past experiences and undue conditioning only makes you spoil your real nature. You always think, 'No, the last time I tried and things were a failure. Nothing worked. I think this time too, the same thing is going to happen.' Don't have all those past things in your memory. Even the idea 'the last time I failed' is past. Cut it from the very root. Drop from the very root of the past.
Someone came and told me, 'Swamiji, last year alone, I stopped smoking 27 times!' Just imagine. Understand: it is you who gives energy to the past. The past can never control you on its own because there is no entity called 'past'! The past is actually dead. It is you who gives it life.
BLISS I S CHOICELESSNESS
By the time you reach the nirvanic layer, you will be without samskaras and at the doorstep of enlightenment. You have to let go now to reach enlightenment. It happens on its own. It cannot be made to happen. It is like river water. It stays in your hands as long as your hands are open; once you close your hands to possess the water, there is no water.
Bliss is like a flowing river. It is choicelessness. If you try to make bliss a choice, it will be absent. If you can understand the purposelessness of life as a part of the grand plan of Existence, you will reach this layer. The river flows without a purpose right? Does the river have any purpose? No! Yet it flows so blissfully.
The ego believes that there is purpose to life - material, relational and spiritual. The more purposes there are, the stronger your ego feels. If you drop all purposes and still hold on to the purpose of enlightenment also, it is futile. Only when you realize that life is totally purposeless and you drop your ego, will enlightenment happen to you.
BLISS IS THE PATH AND THE GOAL
Even if you apply your strong logic you cannot find the purpose of Existence! The purpose of Existence is bliss, that's all.
How can we enjoy without possessing, without making something our own? We are like water bubbles on a wave in the ocean. Each bubble catches hold of a few more bubbles and calls them wife, husband, father, son, and collects shells thinking they are jewels. The bubble does not understand that it can burst any moment and once it bursts, none of this will hold good.
When you are ready to digest that everything is purposeless, whether material, relational or spiritual, only then life acquires meaning. The moment you have a goal, you miss the path.
The mind always waits for something to happen. It waits for salary - weekly, monthly, yearly, five-yearly. If someone offers you 100 years' salary and asks you to die tomorrow, will you die? When you measure your life by paychecks, you reduce your spirit to matter. Your ego is stuck on what you see as a purpose in life.
An elderly lady came to me with her son. She wanted me to take him into the ashram as a brahmachari. I was surprised since usually no parent would like the child to be a sannyasi. Vivekananda is great, but no one wants his son to be a Vivekananda. I asked her why she wanted him to be at the ashram. She said that he is mentally not sound. I told her I run an ashram not an asylum!
We have many reasons why we cannot do things. By the time you finish one responsibility, you will have ten more waiting for you. Running becomes your conditioning, not relaxing.
When you are young, you tell yourself that you will relax after you graduate from university; then you shift the goal post to marriage; then to children; then to educating children; then to their marriage. Can you relax after you are 60? By then you have missed the path itself.
The primal sin you can commit is to miss the path of life by following goals. When you live, allow your being to be blissful. When you start hurrying, think about what you are hurrying for; do not allow restlessness in you, thinking that it will settle down. That will never happen. If you are not able to relax into the present moment, even after fulfilling your responsibilities you will not be able to relax. Whenever you run, just think why and what for.
You may have a big house, drive a big car, and people around you might always be praising you. But can you carry anything of this with you? Can you carry with you even one single cheque book? No! It is all purposeless. When you understand the purposelessness, healing happens. If you allow this understanding to happen, even if you are abused, you will heal. The understanding itself will guide you.
You may be thinking, 'All my life I have had a purpose, and my life has been fine. But now you say everything is purposeless.' Whether you like it or not, that is the truth.
Your seeing me is a dream. Scriptures say that the moment you see an enlightened master, you become enlightened! Understand, see seeing me is not the same as looking at me, which is what you do. Looking is with eyes; seeing is with the being. The closer you come to the master, the more your understanding of him changes. Your maturity allows you to see me differently as you grow.
People get a shock when I tell them about the purposelessness of life. Restlessness hides the purposelessness from you; it hides the path with the goal. Please understand this and be healed. All your dreams of the future, and all your guilt of the past will disappear; all ephemeral joys and suffering will vanish.
In Tiruvannamalai, my hometown, there was a saint by name Yogi Ramsuratkumar. He was as innocent as a child. Whenever people came to him, whatever their problem was, he would say 'Alright'. When someone died, he would say, 'Alright'. If someone's son was getting married, he would say, 'Alright'. I asked him, 'Swami, why do you say alright to everything?' He said, 'Everything is just purposeless. Whatever you think has a purpose has no meaning.'
Whenever you remember the truth of purposelessness, healing will happen, and suffering will disappear.
You need courage to pursue the truth. Life will then take on a different path. You will live as a liberated soul. You will never drop your job, relationship or wealth. You will drop only what you do not have. You will drop the mental associations. You will drop the fantasy of a throne and start enjoying the seat on which you are sitting. When purpose is dropped, meaning will happen.
RESTLESSNESS - WHY YOU BECOME TIRED
You actually become tired not by doing things, but by thinking of how much you have done. The play of the mind makes you tired and dull. You constantly struggle; you are restless. Once you understand why you feel tired and dull, you will switch track. When you switch track, you will never think that you are doing anything great. You think you are doing something great only because the mind makes it out to be so. The moment you understand this and your mind loses its power to do this, you will start working without ego and you will work ten times more! Then your inner space will be so pure. Even if you have achieved great things, you will not bother about it.
We just finished installing the largest Venkateshwara deity in the USA. In fact it is one of the largest stone statues here. All it took was a phone call. I do not think I did anything big for it. By the time you finish the word building game, you will become tired. Instead, you can finish the work itself.
If you work towards a purpose, you calculate at every 10% step of the job. By the time you reach 50%, you are tired. You start thinking that you are doing something big.
THE COURAGE TO BREAK FREE FROM THE PAST
Now it is time to enter into the nirvanic layer – the seventh body. Actually if you travel up to the seventh layer, there will be no suffering that can hold you back from enlightenment or from relaxing into Existence.
Only one thing will be there: the remaining seeds of karma - just the old memories or a little bit of emotional attachment to the old memory; that's all, nothing else. If you have the courage to move on from your emotional memory or your emotional attachment, this nirvanic layer also will be cleansed. There is nothing in this nirvanic layer which can hold you back.
Actually if you do this whole program intensely, it is a straight route to enlightenment. Do as much as possible, and it will enrich your life. It will cause tremendous physical and mental healing in you. But the aim of this program is not just physical or mental healing, but the healing of your entire being.
I have designed this program to get you out of the bhavaroga – worldly life. If you are intense, this single technique that you are going to do now, can completely liberate you from the entire past. In the nirvanic body, all you need is the courage to take the jump.
All you need to do in this nirvanic layer is to break free from the past. One important thing: just take a few minutes and think back…Now practically you have your complete biography in your hand, am I right? You have your biography in the papers that you are holding in your hand. If you have written properly from as much of your life as you remember, you will have your entire biography in your hand. Now ask yourself: the way in which you lived in the past, is it perfectly alright or do you feel there is a need for some improvement? Naturally you will feel that you should improve or develop it, am I right? If at all you think, if at all you feel there is a need for development, that there is a need for transformation, please understand that you have to drop the whole past mental setup. You can't say, 'No, there are some good things that I will take, and all the bad things I will drop.' No! Either you erase the whole program or you live with the whole program, that's all! There is no such thing as taking a little bit and leaving the rest.
Be very clear: if you think it is garbage, you have to dump the whole thing; or you have to carry the whole thing in your head. You can't say that you will pick up pieces of the garbage, arrange it nicely and put a little perfume over it and live with it. No! Either you throw the whole thing out or keep the whole thing with you. If you consciously decide that you need transformation, then throw the whole thing out.
DROP THE EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT TO YOUR MEMORIES
Immediately the next question will be, 'If I throw away everything, will I forget where my house is? Will I forget who my wife is?' Will I forget who my relatives are?' Be very clear, you will not forget where your house is or who your wife is, but you will forget the loaded memories or the loaded emotions associated with the house or wife.
When you forget, when you drop the emotional attachment to your memories, you are free from the 'burden' of the past. All these words appear to be too big, but I tell you your visualization has enough power, enough capacity, enough energy, to achieve this state.
The big problem is that we don't believe we have something called inner space. Just as you have an outer space, you have something called as inner space. Consciously you can clean this space.
All that we are going to do in the seventh layer is, consciously keep the inner space clean. To tell you honestly, it is not that you can throw away all the negative engrams. Whether it is desire or guilt or suffering or joy or anything else, it is not that you have worked on all the engrams completely. There will be a little bit remaining in some corner. Now it is time to dig deep in all the layers at once and throw them out. Re-live completely all the six layers, and relieve them! Reliving is relieving.
BREAKING FREE FROM YOUR MENTAL S ETUP
In the nirvanic layer, all you are going to do is only this one thing – breaking free from the past.
The seed is always afraid to break. It says, 'No, let the tree happen, only then I will break.' The tree in turn says, 'No, let the seed break, only then I will happen.' The seed has to break to allow the tree to grow! Only when you break free from the past mental set up can you create a new mental setup. You will be able to create a new mental setup only if you create the space for it.
Now, consciously, and a little violently, we are going to throw away our negative engrams. Not only consciously, a little violently also. You are just going to push your unconscious away from you. Or you are just going to bring your unconscious to your consciousness. The moment you bring it to your consciousness, it will be burnt away. You don't need to do anything special. Just bring it to your conscious zone, and it will be just burnt away.
If Shiva opens his third eye, it is just enough… Manmata (lust/ cupid) will be just burnt away. Manmata is a character from Hindu mythology used as a symbol of lust or unconscious. Now all of you are going to do the same thing. Actually it is a metaphysical story: Shiva opening the third eye and Manmata being burnt.
There is no real person called Manmata standing with a big sugarcane bow and flowers as arrows. And neither did Shiva actually open his third eye and direct fire on Manmata to burn him away.
If this really happened, then Shiva is a criminal; he has committed murder! It is a metaphysical story. When you open up the Supreme Knowledge, when you open the gnaanaagni - fire of intelligence in you, it just burns away all your negative engrams; all your negative engrams are burnt away. That is the meaning of the story. Now it is time for you to open your gnaanaagni or throw all your engrams into the fire of consciousness.
Breaking free from the past is the ultimate liberation. Now you are going to open your conscious being to your engrams. You are going to open your engrams to conscious energy. You are literally going to burn all your engrams. The book in which you have written about all your samskaras, is going to be put in the fire, so that you are rid of the samskaras once and for all.