Drop your past failures
Every moment, the load of your past does not allow you to progress in the future. The load of your past is like a huge iron ball chained to your leg! How long can you drag it and expect to move forward?
Listen: you are capable of taking responsibility only for your future. You cannot do anything with your past! When you practice integrity, you will not allow your past to come and interfere with your present moment. What I am sharing is the most practical principle of life.
Negativity has its roots only in your past. Most of the time you are caught in fear, jealousy, anger, lust , without even being aware. When you start practicing integrity with integrity, you will be aware of every thought you are having.
If you don't remember your past again and again and again, the first thing that will happen is that you will be free from your past, and your inner space will be available for your future responsibility and responsible future.
Positive thinking is always negative
I have received a question: Swamiji, can you please clarify the difference between complete cognition and the so-called positive thinking?
Listen: the so-called positive thinking is always positive/negative thinking! Usually your thinking is negative/positive thinking. In positive thinking, you shift to positive/negative thinking, that's all!
Your ordinary thinking is usually negative, because you rarely think positively. Positive thinking is like consciously trying to be positive, but falling into negative, then again starting with positive and falling into negative, and so on.
Positive thinking is just fighting with the negativity. It can never heal the negativity. The deep wound, where you start believing that negativity is going to be your permanent lifestyle, can be healed only in complete cognition. Positive thinking cannot heal your strong belief that failure is always going to be part of your life. Only with complete cognition, you can have the totally positive experience. Complete cognition is poornatva or completion.
I have one more question here: Is positive thinking a deliberate conscious ego-building?
I tell you, it is a deliberate conscious ego-building - without a foundation! It can collapse anytime, and when it collapses, the damage will be too much! A small earthquake is sufficient for the whole thing to collapse, and the damage will be too much.
Positive thinking is just fighting with the negativity. It can never heal the negativity. Only complete cognition will heal the negativity.
Your only enemy
Many times, people come and tell me, 'I am not able to get out of my fear.'
Please listen: why you are not able to get out? Because you already committed with that negativity many times! For example, you tell yourself again and again, 'I am going to be destroyed. I am going to be destroyed. This is the way it is going to happen. I am going to be a loser, loser, loser.' It means that one hundred times you have committed to yourself you are going to be a loser. Then, naturally, your whole energy will work only to fulfil that concept - the commitment you gave to yourself that you are a loser.
After repeating this to yourself a hundred times, if you once decide to say, 'I am a winner', that will look too silly even to you! You yourself won't believe it. Making a positive affirmation a few times will not be enough to compensate for the hundreds of times that you declared that you are a loser. You don't even really believe it, because the past incompletions are still alive in you. It is only for the sake of argument that you say, 'I am a winner.'
Sometimes, when you have an argument with your spouse, you know for sure that your spouse is going to win the argument, but just to record your opposition, you make some statement, knowing that anyway you are going to lose the argument! That is the way it will look to you when you try to convince yourself that you are a winner, after you have uttered a hundred times to yourself that you are a loser!
I know the space of utter positivity, complete positivity. I know the space, I cherished that space, I am cherishing that space. I am exactly in the mood of the Vedic rishi (seer) when he roared:
Shrnvantu vishve amrtasya putraaha Vedaahamekam purusham mahaantam
'Oh Sons of Immortality, I know the path to it. Wake up and achieve it!'
I tell you, other than your own negative beliefs about you, you don't have any enemy in your life! Just understand this truth and liberate yourself! I am not teaching you; I am not inspiring you; I am not ordering you: I am requesting you to do this.
Other than your own negative beliefs about you, you don't have any enemy in your life. Just understand this truth and liberate yourself!
Plan for success, not failure
Many times, you plan for failure because you want to be 'prepared' whenever it actually happens!
Drop that planning!
Your mind may say, 'If I suddenly fail, what to do? At least if I think it through beforehand, I will be ready for failure.'
There is no such thing as 'being prepared for failure', because failure will always come from some unexpected zone! Use your logic. If you prepare and prevent your failure, then how can it happen? It can only come from some unexpected angle; something you didn't consider or were not able to plan for. So your precaution and preparation cannot protect you. It is not going to help you in any way.
First, because of wanting to be well-prepared for failure, you visualize that situation so strongly in your mind that you actually create a possibility for it. And thinking that you won't be able to handle failure if it comes by surprise is one more negative commitment you give to yourself!
See the layers and layers of negative commitments you give to yourself. It has gone on for so long that it is second nature for you to think and feel in this way. You really know only suffering. Unfortunately you persist with it by planning to protect yourself from imaginary failures in the future.
First of all, failure is not going to come if you don't create self-fulfilling prophecies. Second, even if it comes, you have the capacity to face it. Whether you believe it or not, accept it or not, understand it or not, there is no such thing as the idea that you cannot face the failure if it comes suddenly. Preparing for possible failure is just one more negative commitment you give to you! It is the logic you use to constantly create negative patterns in you. Are you getting it? That idea itself is one more negative commitment you are giving to you!
Negativity only leads to more negativity. It cannot lead to joy. It cannot take you to fulfillment. Negativity itself is a strategy for failure. Do you want to succeed at failing in your life? If not, root out the negativity so that your natural positivity and integrity express through you.
The next time you plan something, remind yourself not to plan for failure, even unconsciously. Create the space for success, and it will happen.
You are facing it everyday
What is the biggest fear of all human beings?
Death!
Understand: even your biggest fear - death - is going to come suddenly and you are going to face it!
Everything you consider as a failure is going to come only suddenly, and you are going to face it. There are millions of times when what you call failure came to you suddenly and you faced it. Draw courage from that! See the strength in you and support that.
Once you drop the negative commitments you gave to yourself, you cannot justify your planning for failure. You cannot justify your negative plans in any form, in any way. So, drop fantasizing about failures! Drop visualizing about failures. When you do, integrity will simply flower in you.
Sit and undo the negative commitments that you gave to yourself layer by layer and complete with them.
You have to remember them, complete with them and drop them. Only then can you really conquer them. Only then can you release the blocked energy and make it available for you to create your new life with integrity.
You can't just say, 'I hereby drop all the negative commitments I gave to me' and think that it's over. No! First you need to know all the negative commitments that you gave to you, and only then drop them. That will happen only when you start investigating your thought patterns and complete with them.
But there is a way to cancel out all this negativity in a single stroke!
Technique to cancel past negativity
I am teaching you the Mathematics of Life. You need to listen intensely. Every negative commitment you give to you is alive! It has energy. Each negative commitment has to be nullified. Until it is nullified, it continues to give fruit.
Nullifying it is simple mathematics! Bringing integrity to your inner space and life is simple mathematics.
Imagine your life as a mathematical equation, with all the negative statements you continuously make to yourself placed on the equation as the pluses and minuses, multiplications and divisions.
Now what is the equation of your life at this moment?
You don't know.
Assume that it is an equation like A+B-CxD2 xF/G+HxI+J3 -K – a complicated mix of negative commitments like this. Looking at this equation, you don't even know which negative commitment has been multiplied by some other negative commitment, resulting in some other negative commitment!
If you multiply any mathematical equation by zero, what do you get?
Zero!
However big and complicated the equation may be, the moment you say 'x 0' (multiplied by zero) at the end, the whole equation is reduced to zero.
Similarly, integrity is the 'zero' that can cancel out the equation of all your multiplied negativities.
Even if your life has been any number of negative prophecies and negative commitments till now, just put 'x integrity' (multiplied by integrity) at the end of your life equation from now onwards; the whole thing is reduced to zero!
But some people say, 'No, no, Swamiji! You don't know the complications I created in my life! A+B-CxA2 /C2 xB-Q/ABCDE = what?? My life is that complicated! You don't know!'
No! It doesn't matter. Whatever the equation, if you just put 'x 0', at the end, the whole thing is zero! Similarly, no matter what negativity, lack of integrity, negative commitments, self-fulfilling negative prophecies you have created in your mind in the past, just say 'x Integrity' from now onwards! Over! The whole thing becomes equivalent to positivity and integrity.
Just declare it and start living! This is a foolproof solution.
Integrity is the 'zero' that can cancel out the equation of all my multiplied negativities. You are struggling with
three realities
When you are not living in integrity, there will be a conflict between the three realities you are living with - the reality you want, the reality you need, and the ultimate Reality.
When you don't have integrity, your idea of what is the best life will be continuously changing, because you are aware of neither what you want nor what you need in life. Whatever you see or experience around you, you will pick up some ideas from that and create your idea of the ultimate life. So you will have a certain idea of the ultimate life in the morning, a different idea in the evening, and a totally different idea the next day! And none of these ideas will be in tune with what you really need to progress in your life. So you will be pushing and pulling and struggling with these diverse realities.
Listen: any struggle is a defeat for all parties involved in the struggle. Any reconciliation is a win for all parties involved in the reconciliation. If there is a struggle between you and you, all your desires are doomed for failure, and none of your realities can be fulfilled.
When you are established in integrity, you will be completely focused on experiencing the space of positivity. There will be no incomplete cognitions or negative prophecies conflicting with this space. Whe n there is no cnoflict inside you, the reality you want, the reality you need, and the highest Reality, will all fall naturally into alignment.
When you don't have integrity, your idea of what is the best life will be continuously changing, because you are aware of neither what you want nor what you need in life.
Integrity frees your energy
Your distorted cognition of life is the filter which keeps you in maya (illusion). When you establish yourself in integrity, this filter between you and life is removed, and you will start cognizing a new reality.
All your energy, which was blocked by these negative cognitions and negative commitments, is now freed to experience life and to manifest the reality you want. Instead of being bound by the reality you experience, now you are free to create the reality you choose!
The brain that is established in integrity and authenticity can read any book and understand the truths from that book. Just as a Paramahamsa swan can separate water from the milk in a mixture of milk and water, the brain established in integrity can separate truth from untruth effortlessly. The brain established in integrity and authenticity is what I call Paramahamsa, supreme swan.
When integrity expresses through your head, it expresses as intelligence. When it expresses through your heart, it expresses as sympathy. When it expresses through your being, it expresses as peace.
With fresh eyes, look at everything in your life - your business plans, your relationships, your decisions about your future, your decision about your age - everything. Listen! You can even decide how long you want to live on planet earth; you can decide what you want your reality to be! When you practice integrity and authenticity, your Kundalini energy is so alive and awakened, it radiates and fills anything you touch!
When you establish yourself in integrity, the filter between you and life is removed.
How many people are living inside you?
Listen: when you are not integrated, you are like a bunch of people living inside one body!
Sometimes, I have seen ten people or personalities living in one body! And each of your personalities is running its own show inside your body. Imagine the chaos and confusion!
When a group of personalities live in one body, the problem is that all of them need to share your body! So one person owns your hand, another person owns your brain, another person owns your heart. So all of them are incomplete, as no one owns the whole! Tell me, if twenty incomplete people are put together, can they do the work of one complete, integrated person? No - because only one person owns the brain!
When you align yourself to integrity by practicing Swapoornatva Kriya and completion, you suddenly become one being. You become integrated, whole, complete.
When you integrate YOU, you can just declare whatever you want to achieve and do it. You will see - when you experience integrity inside you, the whole word co-operates with you. When you maintain integrity with others, others' confidence in you increases.
When you maintain integrity with yourself, your confidence in you increases. When you have confidence in you, you will realize that you are the ultimate doer, the causer of reality!
Write down five painful childhood memories that impacted your life. Sit and talk out these incidents in front of a mirror or with a person who was part of that incident. Relive and Relieve.
Your confusion is just lack of integrity
Your confusion and forgetfulness are nothing but lack of integrity. It happens because one of your personalities makes a commitment which the other personalities don't remember or don't feel the need to fulfil! When you lack integrity, you even forget what you really want.
You not having what you want in life if forgiveable, but you not even knowing what you want in life, is not forgiveable! Not having what you want is poverty. Not even knowing you want is 'horror-ty'!
When you bring integrity in your thinking, you become aware of every anxiety you go through, every fear you go through, all the forgetfulness you go through. You become aware of how you are responsible for creating negativity in your life; how you are anxious to create negativity in your life! You also understand how you can align to yourself, and the world will just align itself with you.
When you bring integrity in your thinking, you become aware of how you are anxious to create negativity in your life!
Your first cosmic right and responsibility
Integrity is not just ethics - it is your constitutional right and your first responsibility!
In any constitution, you have some rights and some responsibilities. Here, integrity is your right your responsibility! If you understand how much integrity adds to you, if you understand the powers given to you by integrity and how much you will achieve through integrity, then you will understand that it is not just your responsibility - it is your right!
When you understand that integrity is your responsibility, you are in the zone of practicing – as a seeker. When you understand that integrity is your right, you are in the zone of enlightenment! Whatever you want to achieve, you can simply declare it to yourself and do it.
Integrity is not just your responsibility - it is also your right.