Q: Please tell me when a more generalized theme arises in a more camouflaged form showing up as the same shaft. For example fear of rejection.
A: Yes. See, when you try to unclutch yourself from one shaft another shaft will raise. You will be constantly playing with the shaft; that is true.
Q: Since the concept of time itself doesn't exist, what's the hurry?
A: You can wait, I have no problem. You see I am unclutched, I am quite happy. If you want you can listen to the truth and be unclutched; otherwise be happy, no problem, I will have one more program. I have no problem.
Being unclutched is no way related to attachment and detachment. Being unclutched means you will expand your space, the quality of your relationships will be much better. You will be unclutched from the ideas that you carry about them. You will have a lot more compassion, a lot more understanding, a lot more respect about them and for them.
Don't think detachment is unclutching. Detachment is what you experience when you feel disturbed and after a few days again you reach out your hand. That is just a play, when you feel you are disturbed, you take away your hands, again you slowly go there, again you take away your hand. That is no way connected to being unclutched. Unclutched is totally different.
Q: I just wanted to share some of my experience of when we were just sitting. There was such a profound sadness that I had during that experience, because I felt that I really was letting go of the identity I have. That is such a big part of what we identify ourselves with, and it is a very sad feeling to let it go.
A: Be very clear, the moment you decided to think you forgot about your identity, that's why you are able to speak. This very thought to hold the microphone and speak, that very moment, your identity is not there in that space. Unless you move that thought of identity, the thought to speak will not be there. It is not a big thing.
Somehow, because you got all these words in your being that if you lose your identity you will have pain, all these words you have created within you have created a shaft. That is the reason you are suffering or you think you are suffering. If you look into that profound sadness, when it is happening, if you look into it without words, it will be a profound silence. Because you don't know the wrong word for the right emotion!
Many times you start using the word pain for pleasure because you have never experienced pleasure in a deep way. Whatever happens in you, you always think it is a disturbance. It is very easy to use the wrong word because it is very easily available. The availability is more.
So be very clear, when it exactly it is happening, in that moment it will not be sadness. Just be unclutched, even if it is sadness, be unclutched. Sadness is what? It is your past sadness and you are connecting, that it is the same. That is why you are saying it is sadness. Relax from it, you will see it disappears.
I think it is time we should take the collective oath. Please sit straight, close your eyes. I hereby take the oath to myself that I will respect the privacy of others. I will not use this information to disrespect, exploit or judge, blackmail anybody based on any information that I hear in this class, in these two days. Not only you will maintain others trust but you will trust that others will maintain your privacy. Relax.
Now not only you respect others privacy, and trust others will respect your privacy. Both things should be done; then you will be able to open up a little bit, step by step.